The past will stay in the past. The present is right here right now. The future...Well we will see.
Sometimes there are times where everything stops, when that happens i find myself looking into the past. I look at the pictures, the stories I wrote, the conversations I had… and that sometimes makes me miss of what it used to be… I say forget about the past, which is easy to say but for me it takes more than my soul to forget.
I see his face every night. through my dreams he is still alive. I can wake up and smell him on my sheets. When I see him I fall into tears, because being with him is all I wish. Loving him is so hard when I’m not near him. Loving him, when he does not love me hurts me even more. I’ve been talking about my “John” for three years now. And I simply wonder when i would stop yearning for his soul.
there is a certain time of the year, when I become weak, and we are on that place as we speak. weakness is soaring through my veins. and I have to fight with myself to forget of what was and to make a present.
I loved a sailor, but he told me he had to go. And told me to forget about him. He went of to sea, and told me he will not come back, but for months and years and day and hours and seconds I waited for him. I was in love with him and I couldn’t let him go. Every day I would go to the docks for two, three hours I would wait every night and he never arrived. One night I went to the docks to wait for him, but instead of seeing him I met a pirate. His name was Dan Jackman. I would go every night to the docks and Dan Jackman was there. Throughout the nights we will have small talks. I started to grow fond of him, he told me everything and I did as well. I told him about the sailor and how much I loved him and he told me he might never come back. His voice was so sweet, his eyes were full of trust, yet he was hiding something. But I paid no attention. Until one night he kissed my lips, I kissed him back. I began to like him, I began to like Dan Jackman, and I began to let go of my Sailor. We will meet each night at the docks and kiss and fall in love with one another. We did this for months, weeks, days, and one night I mention to him that I started to have feelings for him. Dan Jackman showed and explains his feelings towards me As well. He told me he loved me, and asked for my hand, I said yes. The next night when I went to the docks he was no where to be found, but a letter where his boat used to be. It stated:
Since the day I saw you I knew we had to be together, I would see how you would patiently wait for a person who will never come, I would see the love you had for him in your eyes, and I just needed that in my life. So I’m going of to sea, it’s time for me to go, but be patient my love, I will be back. Remember you have my son in you and you can’t let me go…
All dreams come true you just can’t give up, there are going to be times where it seems impossible but that’s the exact time when they will come true! Stay true to your dreams don’t ever give up until you achieve them!
One of my dreams came true today, I never gave up!
Today well about two or three minutes ago I saw a video a friend posted about her dad! Her dad had always have problems involving his health. A normal cold for us would be pneumonia for him. He would always get hurt and have lots of pains on his knees his feet will get numb for an uncontrollable amount of time, there were times where he would he need an oxygen tank and would barely sleep! And as the years progress his problems got worst until he found the solution! And that solution is called YORHealh! He is using the products all of the products and he is making such a great process! When the video was taking which was earlier his month the doctor told him hat everything was good and he is actually improving! He walked up and down the stairs twice feeling no pain! This progress is so amazing! These products work, Arturo is a man making history, he is a success story and I’m so happy that the products are really helping him out! We are truly helping the world one person at a time! He is getting healthier each and everyday with the help of YORHealth products!
I’m in love with a sailor. the reason he is a sailor, is because he doesn’t stay. he is always out in the ocean. and the signal out there is very low. so we don’t really talk. when he goes out and search of whatever it is, I don’t see nor speak to him. all I have are just the thoughts of us. when he comes back, we spend most nights together. or try to spend as much time we can. yet we know that those nights won’t last, because he is a sailor. I love him, more then he will ever love me. there was one time when I was leaving of to another land, he said he had to let me go. he never really did, but for a while I felt like he did.
I’m going to build something so big everyone will know about it. this week, it’s a wrap, we are going to push mountains we are going to fucking focus. we are already focusing, we are already going through so much fucking shit that we just have to do it. we are going to fucking blow up and fucking do it!
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